i am very tired today, after a long day of study, i still need to face the cadets. their attitude, their drill... we have really try our best in teaching them the maching, i think they have improve quite a lot already, but all have to depend on wed wat the senior think, hope they will accept it, i am really very tired, i had use up too much of my time in red cross, i think is time for me to catch up with my studies now... i wonder who can help me to decide wat i shall do... can anyone tell me how....... im really tired...im utterly demoralised now ... perhaps indeed im a perfectionist, an imperfect perfectionist... i cant seem to do anything well... i just want to rest, sleep....