is weekend !!!yes is weekend!! i never like weekend sooo much in my life... haha...cause only weekend i dun need to travel all the way down to bukit merah to work... somemore is early in the morning lo... so boring lo... go there also nth much to do... do the thing also not related to my studies de... WTH... waste of time!!!! but well... wat to do... i got to survive with it for 3 mths... i dun wanna retake my SIP again ><... my intern mate still not bad larhs... we always chit-chatting and chipchip our pringle there... lol..but sian larhs... always put us so far away... RAWR!!! it make the time passes so slow when sitting alone lo... yawn!!!
meet my poly clique on fri after work at city hall for dinner... hahas... great time man!! but just for a while only.. cause everyone was tired also le... nvm.. we shall meet out again some other times kays?!!

well...my r/s prob is getting more and more complicated...i lazy to care anymore le..pls just stay away from me... cause i really dunno what i want anymore...



Create Yours @ NackVision

well... im so tired.... no mood to blog..... just pray tt no more powerpoint le pls!!!! well actually sometime i really think frienster horoscope is quite true~

The Bottom Line
You don't have to start a new romance you're not ready for. You are worth the wait.

In Detail
Sometimes, even when you're not looking for a new romance, one comes along and taps you on the shoulder. But make no mistake -- if that happens today, you have a choice. Go down this intriguing path only if you want to. Have faith that if it happens once, it can happen again. Do not involve yourself in any type of emotional entanglement unless you're completely ready. If you're not ready, trust that this person will wait for you to be ready.


so tired... jsut get home less than 2 hrs... den later a while need go sleep den tml need weake up early to go work... wat kind of life is this sia... gonna live with it for 3 mths... rawr~~!!!!

The Bottom Line
Clean out your emotional clutter with physical exercise. Get your endorphins going.

In Detail
You clean your house on a regular basis, but are you as diligent about cleaning out emotional clutter? A great way to break away from some recent stress and anxiety is physical exercise. Get out today and get your heart rate up -- remind yourself that you are a living machine that needs to be pushed to its physical limits once in a while. But don't push yourself too hard -- just do enough to feel the wonderful rush of endorphins that good exercise can bring.


First day of attachment at health management international limited.... so tiring... work from 8.30am-6.15pm.... such a long day.... complete edit and add animation for full 6 powerpoint... omg.... imagine the number of slides inside... i am getting crazy le lorhs... sit they the whole day just to edit it... somemore the font all these diff size de... make me so fed up... but never mind la... wat to do... that the only first day....

well... so lonely today... go work and go home alone... think he already forget he say before that when he free he will fetch me home le bahs... but think of this also no use... i suggest to be friend since he......nvm... just wait for his decision le... im just not worth for anyone bahs... haix... on the way walking home... i was on the verge to cry lo.. but never la... too many ppl le... just reach home not long ago... so cold... how i wish there someone there for me to hug... haix... forget it man....

i really dunno what i actually want le larhs... i also dunno what my head is actually thinking... i just tend to think to much as what u say bahs...

sorry edwin... u have been good... always give in to me all these... but im sorry that i always make u angry...maybe u r right... i always been thinking too much... i wan to change but is hard.... i just already have lost all my confidence le... i dun have trust in anymore... perhaps just that when i put in trust in someone,, i will just often got disappointment.... what i need is just someone there for me always,someone that is honest and truth, someone i can really trust, someone that care and feel my importance... why is it tt hard?? or am i too demanding le... i really dunno larhs...

just sorry to anyone... im just useless.... i gotta change those bad habit of mine... is definely a MUST!!!!!!!!!!!


The Bottom Line
If you feel as though you're sacrificing too much, work to find a compromise.

In Detail
If you feel as though you've been sacrificing too much at work, in a relationship or for some family obligations, then stop doing it. It's okay to focus on yourself for a while -- take steps to get back some of your free time. After all, you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of others. If you're not happy and fulfilled, then how can you be a responsive friend, relative or spouse? Start trying to find a compromise today.

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.












that true

I give up le....

that all i can do...

there alot of thing in my mind that i wanna say....

but i will just kept it to myself

cause watever say mean nothing anymore...







how come i just couldnt cry anymore...

although i feel so miserable....

has been rotting at home the whole day watching taiwan drama... starting from april,i already dunno finish how many set of drama le... hmmm count should be 4 set bahs.. pro right.. hahas... well... wat to do... i gt nth to do... and to prevent me to start anyhow thinking... i will just have to occupy myself with those drama...

i really miss him... but i cant tell.. is complicated enough le ... think abt it... i never really face to face tell him that i miss him before.. all r thru sms or msn... well... dun think have the chance also le mahs... trying to keep a distance away frm him...i wan to forget him... i try very hard...but why the moment i wake up i will just thought of him... wth... what happening to me? am i serious this time? rawr~!! so wat? i cant do anything else... just let me miss bahs... at least something to do...


got sip interview on mon... omg... i have been attach to health medical international pte ltd.... and it is damn far lo... jalan bukit merah there... arggg.... wat to do... stupid school la.. dunno how to plan de.. interview on mon... dunno how will it goes... heard frm those back frm interview de... the qns the company ask are so chim lo... dun think i can ans lo... need to wear formal again... omg... but well.. that no the question... interview part more nervous... wat if i failed it... OMG...somemore my mood now really not suitable for any interview mahs... why must there be interview ... den other dun have... rawr!!! walk one step see one step bahs

haix... really miss u... but just kept to my heart bahs...

i have do watver i can do le... i try very hard, i waited... i never ever give up before... but u give me up... wat can i do anymore... i wan to help... but the ans u give is no really no.. i m so useless... i just cant be compare to someone else... i really dun wish to give up... but wat use has it got... i still rem i ask u the qns of what if one day i disappear before... the ans u give really make me smile.. u say u will find me up and down, u dun care... just must find me... im really very touched.. but now...does it still applied? am i still someone impt to u? i really dunno le... hurts... real hurts..

has been quite lost today... locked myself in the room the whole day... wake up actually quite early today... or rather didnt rest long... well... but never get out of my bed until late afternoon... i still carry the hope that my hp will ring that he will sms or call me... but nope... it remain so silent the whole day... it really bring my mood down... although i say i wont appear infront of him... but i really dun want to mean so... but wat can i really say... cant be possible keep on irritate him right... the best way is i go....

im willing to wait... i know is silly... but what can i really do... i just like him... but i wont bother him anymore... really very tired le...... i dun wan to do anything anymore le

why cant everything juz be easy and simple... how i just envy others that can be so simple and happy ...

cant he just care and give me more attention? im just feel being neglected...very neglected... but what can i really do... im just nth to him... what does impt mean? he say im impt to him... but i just feel like im nobody... just nobody... maybe impt doesnt really mean that impt bahs...

why cant everything juz be easy and simple... why???? is it that hard? i m not being greedy also... i jus need someone to care and give me attention... is tt very hard... is it very difficult just to accept me?

i just want everything to be simple and easy... god pls grant me this wish... is not tt hard right? im just getting very tired of what kind of life i am leading now...

anyway thanks peixiu, huifen, jos, eve, xuan,wing yin, gabriel, jerome, ssk, yvonne, beeyan, calvi for wishing me happi birthday... thanks lots guys... muacks... really thanks gabriel for the birthday cake he drew on msn.. hahas... is nice... shall upload it next time when i am free... just damn too lazy ^^ hahas... as usual... my family forget abt this date... haha... and my mum only rem is good friday... =.=''' hahas but nvm larhs... get used to it le... smilex...

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Jinying Means

J is for Jealous I is for Industrious N is for Naughty Y is for Young I is for Insane N is for Natural G is for Goofy

Your Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond. For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner. However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

People Envy Your Generosity

You're a giving soul, and you'd do almost anything for those you love. And they'd do anything for you! People may envy how giving you are, but more than anything, they envy those you open your heart to.

Your Greed Quotient: 37%

You're a little greedy, but generally you don't let your desire get the better of you. You know that good things will come to you - as long as you wait your turn!

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them. You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry. If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

Your Summer Love Type is Go With the Flow

A great summer love may be in the cards for you ... or not. You'll have a fantastic time this summer, taking what comes. What you want is flexible - what you'll get is up in the air. No matter what, you'll have fun - and maybe a few flings!

happy birthday to me...

happy birthday to me...

happy birthday to me~~~~

happy birthday to me!!!


well... i am nineteen le... should i be happy or should i be sad?? well he is the first one to wish me happy birthday... really great that he remember that and that what i hope... well... but i dun really know whether i should be happy or not... i still dunno who am i exactly to him... just important only? well maybe to other... others will say... hey important already ehs... is enuff le bahs... but i am just too greedy... that not enuff for me... and i am just damn far too stupid... i need a more precise answer...i did once give myself a time limit... that till my birthday... well... the day has come...i know there a bit of improvement le... but should i just give up?... haix forget it man....


well shall leaves aside those stuff.... jerry suddenly sms me today ehs?... surprising right... u all might think... jerry? the tour guide?... yea... that him... suddenly msg me i also got quite shocked.. and the way he msg me make me more shock lo... well there goes our conversation...

jerry: hey wat u doing... busy with ur work nowadays?
me: haha... no larhs... slacking at home lo...
jerry: wah, u no heart, so long never msg me, so fast forget me le...
me: u den no heart larhs... where will forget ur photography skill... hahas... ehs.. how come so good and free to msg me?
jerry: miss u la... but pity u got bf lei haha...
me: haha... doesnt sound something that will come out frm ur mouth ehs? and when did i tell u i got bf... dun spoilt my reputation ar!
jerry:hor,that mean u say me neither romantic nor sweet tok lar... haha u where got reputation..
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the conversation goes on larhs... but forget abt the detail la...

hahas... damn surprise that he will msg me till like tt lo... miss me? lol... and there no need to romantic or sweet talk to me bahs.. hahas.. well... a damn nice and cute friend indeed... although only get along with him for the 7 days trip at taiwan... other than all those nonsense... still no bad larhs.. hahas... shall ask if he gt gf... lol...

The Bottom Line
If you're upset with someone right now, you need to find a way to say so.

In Detail
Keeping a tight lid on your emotions might be an effective way to achieve a cool and collected demeanor, but it's also important to find time to feel your feelings -- and learn from them. If you're very happy or very upset with someone right now, you need to find a way to express those feelings. This person needs to hear the truth -- whether it's good or bad. Shutting down and doing your best imitation of a robot is not going to help you move forward right now.



lalallalaaaaa

卓文萱&小鬼 愛的主旋律 LYRICS

是你在那個雨季衝進我生命 帶著一點任信和迷人的表情
是你在那個雨季趕走了孤寂 溫暖的笑容還我僅有的堅定

天上一萬顆星星我卻只看見你 要說這是幸運還是不可思議
身邊有太多風景我卻停在這裡 說我傻的可以還不是因為你

(小鬼) 是妳的聲音 (卓文萱) 帶給我勇氣
(小鬼) 戀愛的頻率 (卓文萱) 直到我心底
(小鬼) 如果你願意 (卓文萱) 是的我願意
愛在我幸福的主旋律

(小鬼) 從前都是你 (卓文萱) 現在我相信
(小鬼) 天空會放晴 (卓文萱) 愛會更甜蜜
(小鬼) 如果你願意 (卓文萱) 是的我願意
愛的主旋律永遠唱下去

是你在那個雨季趕走了孤寂 溫暖的笑容還我僅有的堅定
天上一萬顆星星我卻只看見你 要說這是幸運還是不可思議
身邊有太多風景我卻停在這裡 說我傻的可以還不是因為你

(小鬼) 是妳的聲音 (卓文萱) 帶給我勇氣
(小鬼) 戀愛的頻率 (卓文萱) 直到我心底
(小鬼) 如果你願意 (卓文萱) 是的我願意
愛在我幸福的主旋律

(小鬼) 從前都是你 (卓文萱) 現在我相信
(小鬼) 天空會放晴 (卓文萱) 愛會更甜蜜
(小鬼) 如果你願意 (卓文萱) 是的我願意
愛的主旋律永遠唱下去 La....

La....La....La....La....

(小鬼) 如果你願意 (卓文萱) 是的我願意
愛在我幸福的主旋律

(小鬼) 從前都是你 (卓文萱) 現在我相信
(小鬼) 天空會放晴 (卓文萱) 愛會更甜蜜
(小鬼) 如果你願意 (卓文萱) 是的我願意
愛的主旋律永遠唱下去

天上一萬顆星星我卻只看見你 要說這是幸運還是不可思議
身邊有太多風景我卻停在這裡 說我傻的可以還不是因為你

what if one day i suddenly disappear... what will u all do??

life really a very mysterious thing ... ones wont know what will happen to him/her in the next sec of their life...

my mum 's big sis.. (my 1st aunt) passed away this morning... well... really a shock news..but at least she passed away very peacefully ...she sleep to death... well... that life... we are not able to make it down to her funeral...last min my parent cant take off too... den still need to book air ticket all these... kind of worry for my grandma...afterall is white hair send off black hair... heard frm my small aunt that grandma remain calm after hearing the news... but..... haix...


i also dunno why... i start to dislike myself... is not hate... but just dislike.... damn it... argh!!!!!!!!!

today is 5th april.... tml will be my birthday le... time passes so fast... well... des is the first to greet me... recieve his letter on tues... he still rem my birthday... but somehow i really dun wish he rem tt... i really dunno how to reply him back... haix... arg!!!!!!!

The Bottom Line
Balance your selfishness and selflessness -- you can't always be the one giving in.

In Detail
You've been doing an excellent job of putting your needs behind those of the people you love, but don't get too carried away! It's more important than ever for you to balance selfishness and selflessness -- because neither one is a good quality all by itself. Going out of your way for the benefit of others is a good way to make people appreciate you, but it could also send the wrong message about who you are and how much respect you deserve.


well... do i seriously need a change??




damn bad mood larhs... RAWR!!!! what do i really want... and what does he really want!!! when time reach will tell me??? wat the different of telling me now!!!! when will it be man... rawar~!!!! fed up le larhs~~!!!!

what kind of life am i actually looking forward too? sometimes i really dunno...i haven find out what the purpose of my life yet...what a meaningless life i am leading... so meaningless till sometimes i really wonder what for continue it... is just a waste of time...

dunno why nowadays get emotionally so easily...maybe too much water in my body le... therefore tears also fall off easily... damn it... why am i getting so weak...

didnt get much sleep yesterday...keep tossing in my bed... wtf...damn dizzy now...gastric also start to complain again le... since yesterday afternoon till now didnt eat a single thing...but who care la.... well there actually a lot of thing i wanna ask him, he knew that too... but i just dunno how to ask...cause i know that the answer i get wont be the answer i want... so i choose not to ask.. i am just cheating myself to make myself feel better bahs...im just someone who keep running away from reality... not facing the truth... gosh.. i got to change this bad habit of mine...i WANT to change and i HAVE to change, xiaoojin... make everything clear, say whatever u wanna say... and dun ever regret... ....

damn dizzy now... wth... edwin ask me to go out... well... really feel like gg out for some walk... but i shall see later bahs... maybe gg out myself is better =) i am a born loner ^^

hmmm 300 is a nice movie... though so many bloody scence and head cut off scence,, but overall nice~!