suddenly i feel very scare... time pass by very fast... and i haven do much during my holiday.. i haven be revising my work or finish doing my homework... my sec 3 work are already in a mess and i haven do a single thing to help it... i really feel very scare... what shall i do.. i shouldnt be wasting anymore time in playing and be more concentrate in my sch work... say is easier than to be done... isnt it... though i am going up to sec 4, but i still not familiar with my sec 3 works... what am i suppose to do, how am i suppose to take o level in this situation?? i am really afraid if i cant make it... i must really do well in my a math, pure phy and chem, if not i have to really choose one of them to drop, which i really dun wish to, afterall i have come this far... i should not be giving up... but how... anyone can help me?... i feel like crying out loud, but suddenly i cant... is it that i have forgotten how to cry or is it that i have no time to cry... i really dont know... please god ... let me cry... i think it could be better for me isnt it.. or else let me forget everything, forget him, forget everything in my mind, so that i wont be dreaming all the time, dream of those thing that are impossible, will not ever come true... making a fool out of myself...?? is it wonderful?? but there a mountain my my heart, a mountain that i want to walk up with a special person, to watch the sun rise, sun set and everything.. but if that person choose to climb other mountain or maybe he choose to do nothing, i will try to demolish the mountain forever, i get sick of walking up the mountain myself and sit there waiting for someone who i dun even know remember me not... i would rather choose a more stable path...
