why do i have to be always the ones that give in to other. they can show their anger but why cant i.. they can be angry, me too... i am human too... i wont try to give in anymore to anyone if i think i am not in any wrong... thats me... i dont care whether others like it or not... i will just be myself... i will just follow what my feeling will lead me to. i get tired of always being the one that give in... the ones that always put on a smile though i feel like crying at that moments. i always thought that i could always put on that mask and live with it forever.. always as cheerful as other might think... but i suddenly feel a sense of emptiness in me... what has i been doin all these while... acting as a clown??
again Chinese new year celebration ended ... not in our expectation... we got in second for the Chinese new year singing competition this is the 2nd time we got it... hope next year they will get it too... saw lots of people back school today... saw E too... as usual... so cute, so handsome and so attractive... some sort of golden colour hair (which suit him perfectly) with a black tee-shirt ( which i saw him wear for a few time) and a pair of long jeans? but some sort look like pajamas type... but look nice on him too... hope there will be more celebration coming so taht i could see E again... lolx..
