alright... enough of the thing about zhiwei as what i have say he will always remain in our mind...
alright today got a lot of thing for m to think about... a lot and alot... what should i do... again.,... me alone at home... no one except me... i just get tired of it...always only me at home with the accompany of television, computer and my dad that four "luo han yu" i agree that i like to be alone sometimes.... but not all the time... i do need someone i can confide to... to talk to , or just to stay beside me when i am feeling low...... till now i dont think anyone has ever really know how i feel at any moment..., other than sometimes my family... but just sometimes...no one will really know how i feel...i do get tired of it... but i think i getting more used and comfortable to it...i think i going to like this feelinga nd who knows one day i might just... who knows... i did have the tinge urge of committing suicide before but i didnt... i did not have the courage yet... rememebr i have ask some of my friends... if u all were to choose to commit suicide... which ways will you all go for... 1) jump into the sea 2) jump down from a building 3)eat poison 4)cut your wraist 5)eat exceed medicine .. some choose to eat exceed medicine as it doesnt hurt at all... guess what i choose...?? i choose to jump down from a building and my reason was that before i die... at least i could fulfill my last wish... which is to fly...weird reason i have right... we even discuss the time and the place if we want to commit suicide... haha... i choose to jump after midnight to before 5 in the morning where everyone is still sleeping... no one will be able to stop me and i will just go peacfully... the place preferably the building i live in as i dont wish to find other place to... it just a waste of time... ... ...
