i simply fall in love with the night... the darkness and the silent... it is when i could fall deep into my thinking without any disturbance..... sometimes i really wonder what have i been doing all these years..... play? slack?dream unrealistic dream? i dunno.... went to bbq today... play heartattack and i lose.... i was being a question that who i like... for that moment, i was really been strucked...i really dont know...i think for a while and give three names...but think back know... actually maybe only one that had make my heart skip... another one i think he shuai , dun really feel anything when saw him and for the other one... maybe ... i also dunno... only feel that i scare to see him... ... i just dunno.... maybe all are just infatuation... maybe....
sadness has found me... i feel that i have been slacking all these while staring at the wall all the times no knowing what to do although there are pile of thing for me to finish, but i am just staring...
i know i shouldnt me saying these, but i miss him... i dun care if it is infatuation or not...i just feel like seeing him once more...... i dun care what others ppl might be thinking.... i just want to see him... although he might already forget me this person exist in this world....
i am tired....
