Saturday, October 28, 2006
微笑PASTA-北极星的眼泪-张栋梁
像断了线 消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去 你的脸
再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现 爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远
北极星的眼泪 说不出的想念
原来我们活在 两个世界
北极星的眼泪 你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言 淹没在心里面
我抬头看着 爱不见
再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现 爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远
北极星的眼泪 说不出的想念
原来我们活在 两个世界
北极星的眼泪 你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言 淹没在心里面
我抬头看着 爱不见 当对的人
等不到对的时间 在放放开手的瞬间
爱撕成两边
北极星的眼泪 说不出的想念
原来我们活在 两个世界
北极星的眼泪 你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言 淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱 不见 整个宇宙都 流眼泪
gonna post about something bahx.... finally get to see my dear yesterday (26/10/2006 thursday) after for 3 weeks +... but it seems to be already a long time le... i recieve 2 of dear's letter for now le... tml mabe will receive another bahx... cause he say tues like tt send out le... after meeting my dear... his parent send me back to tampines....cause still got sch in the afternoon... although i skip my first 2 lecture =X his parent still bring me to my school nearby to eat finish lunch den send me directly to school... thanks uncle auntie.... although a bit weird( i feel weird with ppl i not very familiar with la... dear know this de.. =P) but thanks anyway... dear always wan me to have dinner or whatever with his family... hmmm now should be partly done le bahs....i will try harder next time k? but is when u come back la... hmmm... dear will be away for 10 months~ haix... such a long time... wanna cry liao la... talk to him i still act strong say 10 mths only... regret le la... sorry la dear.. to many ppl there... pai sei also ma... den dun wan cry infront of u ma... although i did (for a while only la...) dear dun forget what u promise me wor... and my pressie!!! remember hor... must eat well... sleep well wor... rem send me letter and miss me wor... muackss... counting down to the number of days that u will be back wor... gonna ask u for the exact date when i send u the next letter~ MISS YA.... MUCAKSS
Sunday, October 22, 2006
everything that happenning is......... RUBBISH!!!!!!!
has been wondering wat have i been doing... kinda waste of my time everyday ehx.... i soon going to be a loner le....
start to miss my secondary school life and friends... it seems like it has been a long time since i keep in contact with them le.... everyone is sooo busy... when can we meet up again guys... miss you guys~
school gonna start tomorrow... concentraTE more on studying bahx...
overall... i miss my secondary sch friend!! ARG!!!
Thursday, October 19, 2006
yeahh.... so happy today... today is a nice day!!!!!!!!!
wake up early in the morning cause i got dental appointment.... mum accompany me go wor... so good!!!! den after that she bring me go walk walk.... sound like i still small kid that like the accompany of my mother hor... but i really like la... family means alot to me de... had a fishball noodles for lunch anyway....
went home den i go open letter box... and recieve my dear 2nd letter!!!!! yeah... a good day ehx.. but before that i already post hima letter le...maybe gonna write him another letter later ba...
help my mum with the cleaning of storeroom.. it is still half way thru....
bad news... i spoilt the washing machine...stupid me la... make mum has to wash clothes manually... i am a bad ger... sorry mum..
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i keep asking myself
WHY. you CAN make me smile ;
make me laugh ;
make me feel loved.
hold me tight ;
kiss me sweetly ;
care for me deeply.
and made me remembered you
ever so clearly
...even till now.
another day has pass... tml wed le wor... should recieve dear dear de letter le bah.... so looking foward to it wor.... just now des's dad call me... i still thought who sia... thought someone prank call me...cause just past few day got ppl prank call me AT NIGHT!!!! and say all those disgusting thing... what the heck... at night go SLEEP la... go around prank calling ... eat too much ar!!!!! but nvm... just know recieve call got a bit fierce... sorry wor... =P
has been watching show all these while... bored ar..sch gonna reopen also boreddd arrrr..... dunno me ar sia... everything also boredd.... haix.. watch show liaox... want later den blog lo
Monday, October 16, 2006
it is still not the end of the world yet, it is just that i had lost my will to fight. so what if i have lost mine.. at least i am still standing on my own. but must u make it so painful for me?
tell me wat the...
colour of paradise,
the velocity of time,
the weight of memory,
the sound of happiness
the limit of tolerance,
the taste of love,
the smell of freedom,
the length of eternity,
the truth of a lies,
the texture of pain,
i suddenly have forget what they are like....
Friday, October 13, 2006
1 week 1 day le wor... think i gonna get use to life on my own now before u come back.... never really cry le... cause i know u r always by my side so i no scare.... must be strong in order not to let u worry wor... but still miss u alot....by tml or wat... i think u shld be able to recieve my letter le wor.... hope u reply soooonnnnn k? miss ya... love u lots... muackss
Thursday, October 12, 2006
another days has gone le... already 1 week le wor... i still miss u... no matter how long i will still miss u de... no worries.... =) i now must learn to be stronger le... cannot let u worry wor... i shall blog till here... looking foward to ur letter wor... miss ya...
11st oct 2006 i finally recieve my dear letter le... really very happy wor... he still miss me... i love him so much wor....muacksss.... dear i write a letter for u le... tml send out dunno when u will recieve wor... cannot see u my world turn so diff... haix... nevermind... u r still in my heart so u are always with me wor... and still got the toys u give me... they are always by my side lo... dear when i read ur letter , i really very touch... i am really sorry for all the thing i do and mean thing i say wor.... i promise u i will study hard and take care of myself.... u must take goood care about urself also okay? i wait for u to come back wor... dun forget wat u promise me also... dear i love u muackss... lookng foward to ur letter wor
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
5 days le wor... never talk to u and 6 days never see u liaox.. miss my dear alot wor... but i realise tat u really never leaves me alone wor... cause all this while u are staying in my heart never left me alone at all... smilex..2 more weeks school gonna start le... maybe by that time i wont think of u as often le but nevertheless i will still miss u as usual and u are still the important part of my life wor...
well today did nth much ehx...same ar... sleep at 5am yesterday listen to my fav 933FM and thinking of my dear at the same time wor... yesterday cry till very badly.... maybe really miss him alot bahx =) ok la... wake up le den went to living room de sofa sleep again... den after that eat my porridge den watch gong till now den change to watch channel 8... today again write dear dear another testimonial le... so happy wor.... but sad thing is never recieve my dear dear letter wor... tuesday liaox still haven recieve... tml go down try try again... pray pray wor.... i wan know how my dear dear how le wor....
nth much to do ehx..... tml maybe i shall blog abt the kind of place dear dear bring me to eat before... quite a number... must list down den i can rmb... heee..... lalalaaaa..... dear i miss u... go watch show le... must miss me wor...
Monday, October 09, 2006
dear.... i miss u wor... my desire to see u and talk to u grow as night come and as days pass by... now monday le... when can i see you again... without u my life doesnt seem to be full at all... what should i do.... i only can find thing and ppl to keep me occupied to stop me from thinking of u... but no matter wat...u r still the best and the only one in my heart wor... miss you ... but sorry dear... i promise i wont cry... but i cant... i think of u i will cry... sorry dear.... i need someone to talk to me and distract my focus on u... but no body seem to know that.... i feel so alone... i really need u.... how.... *sObz*sobZ*
k ....summarise abt today ba....
did nth... wake up at 1 something den watch gong on my laptop until it become a bit laggy den i stop watching le.... den go online find ppl to chat... den watch tv again...bored la...my past few days also like end.... days without my dear really sianx... with him at least there is someone to talk to... someone to brighten up my life...ok stop thinking... if not i really cry.... dun really know what to do tmr... the only thing i looking foward is ur letter... u promise to write me letter de.... i wonder which day will it arrive...
dear wor... already 4 days never talk to u and 5 days never saw u liaox.... wonder how are you wor... time passes so slow.... i minutes like i days like that.... haix.... hope that i can turn the time faster wor.... have been staying at home for the past few days watching show... i have completed "xing ping guo le yuan "星苹果乐园 this show le wor... now watching "Gong"宫 =) wonder how i gonna spend the remaining days without u.... but i will learn de wor... miss you lots... gonna stop here and write u testi le .... maybe later den blog again bahx..... smilex
Sunday, October 08, 2006
yoz... hey guys ... just to inform that i am fine...no worries =)
just called his house and his sis told me what happen(dun ask me what happen cause i not gonna tell) think i gonna get use to this kind of life for quite a long time... but NO WORRIES... i got friends =) dun leaves me alone woru guys...
kinda miss my secondary school friends.... hey when can we meet up!!!! i wan go kayaking,shopping and lots of more!!!! hey hey where are you guys!!! =.=''
wonder wat selection of course will i get... hmm is it this sem that i got the selection of course... duhz... dun care liaox... hahas.... depend on fate ehxxx.. hope i faster get my timetable eh... hee...
that stupid eng hwa cinema at suntect... say wat will call me but i wait so long alsonever.... omg.... i not going there for any movie!!! HUMPHHH.... =P
no planning for the rest of my holidays le.... so anyone wanna ask me out... i think should be no prob.... staying at home also not bad... can save money.... i wanna buy alot of thing sia... but of course will cost alot... so now... START SAVING MONEY!!!!! plan plan plan~~~
hmmm really dunno what to do for the rest of my holiday.... and rest of the days without u... haix.. "zhou yi bu kan yi bu ba"(walk one step see one step)
i am going to find more show to kill my time.... any intro?
dear... faster come back can... i really cant take it anymore le.... i got no one to turned to... i really dunno what to do le.. i just wan u to come back... i only have this blog left to talk abt u... what is going to happen to me in the world without u... saturday night... everytime... every night you will talk to me on phone and see televison togther... but already 3 night le.... dear...i really cant do without you.... what should i do.............
Saturday, October 07, 2006
i cant.... i cant..... dear i promise you that i wont cry.... but i cant.... i need you... pls give me some news abt you can?pls... i very worry.... i totally dunno wat to do le... infront of my family member i still can control my tear, but when i am alone i cant.... everytime i am feeling down sad cry u will always be there for me... where are you now....one day is already enough for me... i cant take it anymore... pls god... grant my wish pls.... he will be alright...i cant take it anymore le... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 06, 2006
what a lonely lantern festival....
dear u say u will ask someone to call me to inform me abt u de... but where is the call... i waited and waited... carrying my hp all the while with me ,scare that if i left it alone, it rang and i might miss the call.... a very important call to me.... what is happening to u dear... i know nothing at all.... what am i suppose to do?
i hate to be alone, to have nothing to occupied myself and alone at night.... when i am alone or even when i close my eyes i will think of you... and my useless eyes will start dropping tears.... i dun like the feeling... already 1 day never talk to u or msg u le... i really very scared... i dunno how long can i hold on...... pls god... can u at least give me some news abt him.... jinying is strong.... i will carry on not giving up... dear u also worrr.....
i hate being alone...... it make my mind and thinking go wild...
didnt really get any sleep yesterday, didint heard his voice how am i suppose to fell asleep... it has already become my habit of talking to him before i sleep... watch show till 4 or 5 something... didnt really notice the time... didnt really wan to sleep de... but just watch show till my laptop no batt goes into hibernation mode before i close my eyes and let everything in my mind stopped.today wake up at 10am... hardly get 5 hr of sleep remember that mum ask me to video her show for her... but she didnt put a clock as she say she will to wake me up, but weird i wake up myself but is alright.... i cant sleep much also... just not a while ago i empty my "tear tank" within 15 minutes, no worries, it will be refill very soon. i pray that he will be alright... that the only thing that i wan now... pls grant my wish....pls.... i really dunno wat to do le... that why i hate to be alone... that when i cant control my tears from falling from my cheeks. i really miss him alot... i wonder what he is doing now... is he fine? wat is going to happen... can anyone just tell me.... i am going crazy....
5th of october 2006 is a bad day... i dun like it DUN LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am feeling so lonely and helpless now.... everything seem to go against wat i wan...
i am so sad and my head is so pain...
dear is away from me... i miss
him so much.... today is the first day and it is the first time since a long time ago he never call me at night ...how am i suppose to fell asleep that way... i wonder if he is thinking of me too.... i miss him every minutes and second... he will be okay de... no fear.... jinying is strong de...i wont be scare.... so dear u dun worry for me okay?think this will be the only way for me to feel better... by typing all out here...
dear this is the first night u ot calling me... i really miss you alot... i really hate myself for always letting u sad and angry...u know i dun meant tt de... just dunno why.... u really meant a lot for me... really... hope u will take care of urself k... i wait for u worrr......
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
just wake up not long ago... trying to figure out the comment box in my blog....duhz... still cant get anything out... it just cant work properly...-sigh- ... play a few games on the miniclip... they didnt upload alot new games... the games are lame... but easy to kill time.. =)
gonna get prepare to go out le... finally gonna get my butt out of my house after hibernating at home for the past 4 days... meet
des at my house downstair at 3.30pm and is one hour away... think he will be late also... tahtah~ i wan slack my way.. is still early yahx.... decide to play a few more games ...
mum just ask for my old bank book... and ask alot of thing...duhz... and she gonna kept that... hahass... anyway she is going out to work le... home is all mine noww!!!! hahhass...... but i going out soon... no cook today... gonna settle my lunch + dinner outside... i gonna make them into one meal... save money ehx... =)
