i hate being alone...... it make my mind and thinking go wild...
didnt really get any sleep yesterday, didint heard his voice how am i suppose to fell asleep... it has already become my habit of talking to him before i sleep... watch show till 4 or 5 something... didnt really notice the time... didnt really wan to sleep de... but just watch show till my laptop no batt goes into hibernation mode before i close my eyes and let everything in my mind stopped.today wake up at 10am... hardly get 5 hr of sleep remember that mum ask me to video her show for her... but she didnt put a clock as she say she will to wake me up, but weird i wake up myself but is alright.... i cant sleep much also... just not a while ago i empty my "tear tank" within 15 minutes, no worries, it will be refill very soon. i pray that he will be alright... that the only thing that i wan now... pls grant my wish....pls.... i really dunno wat to do le... that why i hate to be alone... that when i cant control my tears from falling from my cheeks. i really miss him alot... i wonder what he is doing now... is he fine? wat is going to happen... can anyone just tell me.... i am going crazy....
