是否应该继续，还是注定要我放弃。
i also dun really know what i wan now... to many prob facing out... and i just really dunno what i really wan. there a lot of decision for me to makes... and i really scare that i might regret any of the decision that i choose...是否应该继续，还是注定要我放弃。both issue require me to think that whether i should continue or should i give up, but if i continue in one thing, i will have to give up in another... my head is really going to burst. reply to des letter ytd... he ask me to have a serious thought of getting back together with him... and i really dunno wat to do...cause there someone keep appearing in my mind... i really feel very bad toward him, it seems like is unfair to him, but view in another way, it seems unfair to me too...10 mths is really a long way...it is already pass 4 mths soon... so another 6 mths to go...so the same question back to my mind...是否应该继续，还是注定要我放弃。well... if ask ppl, definely some will ask me to wait while other just say follow ur feeling goes... but my feeling now is like a whirlpool.
well i will just named that somebody as "B". well did actually being together with B for a while...just a while, the feeling with him was great,comfortable,fun,and nice. it really great being with him, the way he talk, accompany me and even his msg could brighten up my day... really...but prob did face up... at first before we really get together, is the prob his and another ger, after that he know who he really like den we get together , although is just a short period, it really seems like we go through a lot to be together, but maybe not tt lot... soon after we get together, another prob happen, is not his fault totally... i am actually someone who does not express my feeling verbally, i prefer to use sms or wat first cause i find it hard to say it out,but if i got something to say, i dun like to hide it in my heart... well that part of the issue that lead to the prob that face out.after i tell him the thing i wanna say, he start to think whether is better to be friend first cause of his probs and he dun wanna see me sad because of him... well.. i dun wan to make him sad too... i know it doesnt feel good. he really try his very best everytime to make me smile.. but sorry if sometime i seems unhappy.. i wanna solve the prob with him, but he just stubbornly want to solve it himself... wat to do? no matter wat i say ... he just wan to solve it himself...even as a friend, i also dun wanna see him sad or wat... it just doesnt feel good. but wat to do,same question...是否应该继续，还是注定要我放弃。i also dunno,for time being i will just have stand silently by his side and see what i can do lo...i dun like to give up easily.. so yah... maybe that one of my weakness too... if i can give up thing easily.. maybe i wont have all these prob le... haix.. just walk one step see one step bahs..he should know wat i want, but i also dunno wanna add more stress to his prob... so... just be it bahs...i also have my own prob which i never tell him or anyone...so i think friend is a better choice too...
my feeling now is like adding salt to the wound... guess i really need a long time to heal myself... dun really think i am any ready to get into any relationship for the time being. i get very serious when it come to relationship, and that might be my another weakness bahs... if i dun take every relatioship so seriously, maybe i wont get hurt so much . but that cant be change la... i want to treat my close one seriously thus i hope they will treat me seriously too, but i never regret in treatin ppl seriously... so please ppl... treasure me... dun hurt me again... i dunno how more long i can withstand, i might just break down anytime... so please...i now trying very hard to put on a strong front, i dun like to show others my feeling, cause if i really show, im sure that i will change the atmosphere to very bad... thus i tend to smile before others, i wan other to feel happy and not sad just because of me...it is better to just let me sad alone, rather than making others worry for me right? so guys... if u happen to see me putting on my mask... pls act as u never see, dun pull down my mask, dun make me miserable,cause i am used with my mask....
i also dunno why... when i am writting all these... my tears keep flowing down... just cant control.. but thanks goodness no one is at home... haix... stupid mood these few day.... alot assignemnt gonna due le... yet i have alll these prob... really not in mood in any work... haix.. but wat to do...
xiaoojin... u got to endure... nth is impossible de... tml will be a better day!! haix..hope so bahs..
是否应该继续，还是注定要我放弃。。。really hope that i can get an ans soon... and a satisfying answer too... really hope so... well... i shall keep myself busy for the time being... stop thinking all these thing le...走一步,看一步 bahs... ~~~always look on the bright side of life~~
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Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)[?] The Bottom Line
Controversy will keep everyone out of your hair -- you'll make great headway.
In Detail
Controversy will be your ally today. It will create a nice, loud, distracting noise that will keep everyone busy -- and out of your hair! You will need all the elbow room and autonomy you can get today, as it's the perfect day to put new ideas to work. Get in some of that research, planning or organizing you need to do as early in the day as possible. By late afternoon, people could be hovering around you again, looking for the answers only you can give.
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Gemini (May 21 - Jun 21)[?]
The Bottom Line
Today the world will take special notice of you! Expect a surprise advance.
In Detail
Today your energy is so bright and engaging that it's downright obnoxious -- so naturally, the world will be taking special notice of you! Expect some advances from people who might not care whether you are single or not. Put an end to any uncomfortable situations as soon as they start. Silence may be seen as compliance, so be sure to speak up if you're feeling uncomfortable or manipulated. The good news is that you are also attracting friends to spend more time with you. Get ready for a reunion.
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Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)[?]
The Bottom Line
Make a last push in the direction you want things to go. You're at a critical point.
In Detail
Don't look now, but you have reached a critical point with someone you are caring more and more about. All you need to do is make one last push in the direction you want things to go, and this person will finally communicate the message you want to hear. This isn't about forcing someone else to give you your way -- rather, it's about proving that you mean what you say. You'll get a lot of points for follow-through today. Be consistent in your actions, and you'll get what you want.
