today is the beginning of the new year 2007... but suddenly i feel so unhappy...somehow i just feel that i am just a nobody with no friends at all..i once loves to be alone... the feeling is just beyond words... care abt nobody and nobody will cares abt wat u do... but do i really like tt? i dun think so... who dun wans ppl to care abt them and be with them... i am not the exceptional ones... but wat to do... sometime... things are hard to say and control... i can say that i am rather not social-able ... i dun really know how to mix well with ppls and definely dunno how to maintain and keep an on going r/s with them... it is hard for me to find someone i can get along with...although it might seem to other that it is very easy for me... but who really know it? it's really tiring putting on a smile all the time,although i am sad, angry, unhappy....who will actually know how i really feel deep inside... it has never been a time that i am really happy at all... but it doesnt really matter already... cause i have already get use to everything.. in this reality... a mask is all i need...if that can make everyone happy... nothing matter to me right?lets not debate on whether im happy or not...just take it as i am happy... and that its....well guys... dun bother too much about this post... im just venting out all my anger and frustration for the previous year... a brand new year shouldstart with brand new thing and i shall put down all the bad memories and things right... smilex.... Happy New Year 2007..
ps:i regreted to cut my hair...i look so nerd!!!! oMG!!!
