is raining day again... miss my morning the economic lecture....wake up le... but just dun have the mood to go... didnt really sleep well yesterday night also... haix... think i too depend on him le... xiaoojin xiaoojin... wake up a bit can!!!! i dunno why i am having this kind of feeling...i really wonder what going on yesterday...theres no one i can turn to... haix.... sometime i really tell myself that... dun take it too hard.. but i just cant control... i just keep thinking and thinking and kept all things to myself.. i not in any position to ask about anything right? if not it seems like i am stepping my legs into too many thing.although i say that i will take it everything as he never say before... but say is really easier than doing it... really dunno wat to do about it.. simply dun have mood in doing anything.. i am just anxious about what will happen in the future...i have the wants to talk to him, to meet him, to see him,but i dun have the courage or position to tell him that...take a step at a time? how am i suppose to do that when my heart is feeling so different from normal.A simple msg from him will simply brighten up my whole day.i also dunno wat happen.talk to him is like so comfortable, so enjoyable, even though just some emm.. ah... reply makes a great different too.haix... xiaoojin... wat are u thinking actually... he dont really know how u feel right... even he know.. nth will happen also de... pls wake up!!! dun daydream anymore... stop having the desire of ppl caring abt u... there isnt any such privellge for u...
but i dun wish to let go... really dun wan... but did i really hold on to it before...? maybe i shouldnt think too much that day and reply him, everything might be different... well... too late...
