-sigh- cant concentrate on my studies at all... next week gonna exam le.. yet i am still here day dreaming... didnt get anything into my head at all... haix... just cant concentrate at all... keep thinking about thing that i shouldnt be thinking at all... can pls just let me stop all these thinking le mah!!!! i wanna stop!!!! the feeling is damn no good lo.... i wanna cry it all out... but once i start i dunno how to stop...i dun wan that to happen... why is that so that when i need someone to be there for me.. there isnt... i dun even have a listening ear there for me...how pathetic am i? what can i do just to make me stop thinking... just to make myself feel better? what can i do? how i wish there a medicine that will let me forget everything...haha isnt tt good? i wont rem anything anyone..., afterall there isnt anything worth to remember except my family... right? well... i dun really wish to be influence by anyone anymore... i wan to lead my own life... had alot of regretful in the past...done a lot of things that i shouldnt be doing at all... looking back... i am really so regret... nobody knows all those things... and i shall just kept it all by myself... i dun wan anything to repeat its history again... never!!! i wan to lead my own life... i wan to be happy..... but can i?
