is sunday again... just wake not long ago... actually... wake up quite early... but dunno what im thinking la... just lie on the bed think this think tat de... actually i dunno really know what i want also le... actually tot that i could just let go or put it aside first... but wadever shit larh...i dunno why i still being bother by that...
i dunno whether if he ever know how i feel larhs... i know he going out with ger on cny eve la... but dun need to keep repeating de right... i try very hard to act as if i dun care le...wad can i do right? im just a friend... i have no right to say anything else...so dun tell me those detail like wat going for movie den send her home all these thing... save those detail for urself la... i dun wan to know... can u just be sensitive abit about how i feel...is hard for me to continue to talk after u talk abt another ger or wat... i try very hard le okie?
wadever shit i say to myself that wat put aside larh... let go larhs... wadever la... i say it i cant do it... i damn ought to be slap!!! well... wat good for him got ppl to go out with larhs...wat know more ger good larhs... hahas... wat de hell am talking about... i knew i dun wan to say all these... but wat can i say?i dun want to say all these thing... but i need to say it... that the only way to show that i dun care right... i cant possible say out what i wanna say... that will only make everything more worst...
will be going on a holiday during march...never mention to anyone before... so i wont be telling anyone here where and when i will be going also...maybe after the trip i will feel better...-sigh-
