think quite a lot today..or ever since yesterday...perhaps i shall just let go everything... cause i know i can never change anything, everything will just remained the same... everything is just my wishful thinking...his words, his action already make it so clear... everyhting he say is already so obvious...like going out with other ger ar...den the person he hope that will wish him happi bday never wish ar... all these and that... i should already get that hint... is so obvious le.. nth can be that obvious anymore le bahs... maybe this time round i should really let go...i dunno how he think right now...but nevermind larhs... it wont be any good news to me anyway...i should be able to guess how he feel bahs... although sometime his words are kind of misleading...but think he doesnt mean that... just that i anyhow think... but what to do? i also dunno how come i will behave like this... whatever bahs...judt dun care abt me...i also dunno whats wrong with me le... everything seems so wrong...think this time round really need to take alot of time to think le...
i will give up...really... but not immediately... i need time... but i really hope that someone will prove to me my thinking now is wrong...my thinking that i mean nth to him... but... that not possible le bahs..noone can ever ans this qns... except him... but i dun want to ask also... just be it...
might be MIA for a while after the main exam ...yah... wadever
