well... there nth much to blog so i will just blog abt a story that jerry told during the last day of taiwan trip... hahas... just happen to remember it also... =P well... cant really remember every single part of it... but i will try my best bahs...

there was this old married couple that lived near a stable . they will both a very loving couple and they spend most of their time in the stable.they have a token of love , a old chain watch(or what does that call... those round watch with a chain den there a cover when click at the side the cover will open and it has a tick tock tick tock sound). A few years later, the old lady passed away and only left the old man and the watch. The old man was very sad as he loved the old lady very much, thus everyday he just hide himself in the stable and miss his wife. then this day comes, the old man as usual hide himself in the stable with his watch missing his wife.As night come, he old man went out of the stable and den he realise the watch is not with him... he was very worried and panicked at the same time as that the only thing that the old lady left for him. he went back to the stable and search high and low... but he still cant find, he is very sad and he went home. the next day, the old man went back to the stable to search for the watch again, but still he cant find it, thus he walk out disappointedly... den he saw a group of kids playing nearby , thus the old man ask them for some help. The kid agree happily as they knew that they will get some rewards like sweets if they found it. so the kid went in happily and search for the watch, time passes by... the kid came out with no result, the old man was more disppointed.... just then, a boy passes by. he saw the old man with a sad face , thus he ask the old man wat happen, the old man tell the boy what happen and the boy offer his help, the old man think that he and the kid find le also no use... so he already no hope le... but he kid please the old man to give him a chance and so the boy went in the stable. after a few min, the boy came out with the watch. the old man was very puzzled as why he can find it whereas the others cannot. the boy tell the old man that he went in very quietly and he heard the tick tock sound from the watch thus he found it.

in conclusion, the story tell us that did we really calm our mind down and sit down quietly and think of wat our purpose of life, what do we really wants.

well really a meaningful story, it really makes me think that what do i really wants... hahas... haven found any purposes of my life yet.. well... soon bahs... =)

went for interview today... still waiting for calls... wish me luck =)

hahas...has been quite a while never blog le... got update also just update some lyrics of the song... fell in love with these few song nowadays... damn nice lo... hahas...
1)Cao Ge - Bei Pan
2)Mayday - Tian Shi
3)Ah Xin - Qi Shi Hai Ai Ni

woah... damn nice sia all these song.. ^^... did nth much these few days... damn boring sia... rotting at home lorhs... watch corner love by da S and xiao zhu... haha... nice show larhs...still waiting for the esp to be upload to youtube... wait wait wait... yesterday went to ssk work de cc for gym... hahas... damn long never exercise le... getting fat also after the taiwan trip hahas... jiayou bahs... den after that take bus den pass by vivo... hahas... believe or not.. it open so long le i didnt even go there before... yesterday also the first time i pass by it... omg i am such a moutain turtle ehs? anyway anyone wan acc me this moutain turtle go? hahas... go alone very sian de larhs... >.<

sentosa got the musical fountain thingy again... damn nice lo... just saw it on the news... hahas... wonder when den i have the opportunity to go... 6 bucks per person... well is not tt ex... but... wait bahs... maybe only des will acc me go bahs... but... haix... the most i go myself lo... >.<

have been thinking for quite a while le... anyway have start thinking abt what i wanna do after i grad... although it is still a yr away... very fast de larhs... so i start planning le lorhs... well i not gonna start my first job in IT industry... no way man... is damn too boring... i dun wanna spend my whole life doing programming larhs... maybe a later part of my life i might consider... but not for the first job... unless i really cant find any job... hmmm... well... i wanna try something more interesting and exciting... thus i decide to be a tour guide!!... my mum agree with it too... she say i can try it out before i really get into the job of my studies... well i know tour guide is not an easy job... but i just simply interested in it... well.. if i never try how will i know whether i am suitable for it or not... so dun think too much and try larhs... haas... maybe i might stay in tt job for long ehs? hahas... but than i dun have any background or experience in it... thus might be hard to get in this job... but.. try larhs... smilex...^^ i believe i can de... hehes...jiayou jiayou jiayou

hmmm.. kind of dun wanna think anymore abt relationship thingy le... is like everytime i am the only one that is holding on to it... damn tired le larhs... i also dunno how to make it clear to des... i dun wanna make it too harsh, but i also want him to understand what i am thinking, i dun wan him to holding on too much hope when i cant even sure whether the feeling will still be the same to him when he come back...i wan to be fair to him... i dun wan wait till when he come back den i say i have no feeling for him le... that worst... i just wanna him to undestand that this is a better way... everthing can be talk once he come back... but not now...i am damn tired of this kind of r/s also... how am i suppose to put it in? i try for many mths le... but why cant he just understand... will this kind of r/s last? i believe long distance r/s with calls or watsoever still will last... but long distance r/s with no calls and just letter that almost every letter write the same thing for 10 mths last?well some ppl might say yes... but i dun think so bahs ...maybe the r/s between us still not tt strong bahs... with him for 10 mths... and i got to wait for 10 mths... i just not tt prepare yet... or he isnt my prince.. or maybe is just that i am nt the right ones for him... hahas... dunno larhs... walk one step see one step bahs... see when my prince will fall from the sky bahs... hahas... or maybe i shall migrate to india... more possibility ehs? hahas... well... i dun wanna care anything le... i also dun wanna anyhow think le... unless he tell me watsoever... i dun wanna think also dun wanna carry any hope le... ......

back from taiwan i tot i can clear out my mind.. but than i dunno why tt stupid feelin is back again... arg.... but at least better le larhss... smilex.. the trip is damn damn damn nice.... both the tour guide jerry and alex is damn damn damn good... hahas... loves them lots man... bring us to so many places and explain to us so well( credit to alex) and take care of us well esp when my group got so many elderly(although his photography skill not very gd , also dunno where he get that he-own-self-say de license... still credit to him la)^^

anyway i bought my LG KU800 phone... yeppie... love it man... hahas... but then my pocket one big hole le... must mend sia... hahas... oh god... pls give me a job pls.... >.< really damn broke now... sobs sobs ... T_T hahas.... oh ya has been looking up and down for my KU800 casing... but damn it lo... cant find....HELP!!!!

歌曲：其实还爱你
歌手：阿沁 专辑：梵谷的左耳

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你

背叛

曲:曹格
词:阿丹 邬裕康
编曲:涂惠源

雨
不停落下来
花
怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀

爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

心
有一句感慨
我还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在

紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快 [ repeat 2x]

well... forget to blog abt my result... get to see it only after i came back from taiwan which was 18th... i almost forget to check it.. hahas... well.... the result not very good larhs... but can pass can le... thanks goodness dun need to take any sup paper... if not i sure cry de...
Introductory Economics : B
Principles of Marketing : B
CMSK3 : C+
SWEN: B+
SSSD: B+
SADS: B+
APEL3 : Pass


well... hab been eyeing on LG KU800 phone... my phone really cannot make it le... damn stupid lorhs... hahas... saw jerry using that phone also(should be that one larhs) seems nice also... must earn money change phone le... jiayou!!!

well... lazy to blog so i will just upload some of the photo during my taiwan trip... not all larhs... cause total took around 600 photos... if all upload dunno need to take how many days lo... haas....

woah.... finally back to singapore from taiwan yesterday afternoon... after 4 hrs + flight, was damn tired so never blog... so now i am here to blog le.. hahas... been to taiwan for 12 days... hahas... such a long period ehs... the trip there... was... GREAT!!! hahas.. visit alot of places... went to taipei, hualien,miaoli,gaoxiong, ali san... and many many more larhs... really a very nice trip... went around taiwan lo... taiwan really very nice place...love their weather, their ocean, their mountain... all these thing wont be able to see in singapore lo... my tour group also a group of fantatic ppl... although didnt know them well... but they are great too.... the taiwan tour guide,alex is great too!! he entertain and explain to us thing in taiwan very well, listening to him really gain a lot of knowledge... as for the singapore tour guide jerry mahs... although keep suaning me say i pig larhs..,joking with me ask me to eat with him at ma la steamboat all these lar(really scare me sia he suddenly like tt ask)... but overall still great!! get along with him most well... thanks goodness he is there to crap with me larhs... if not i sure bored to death de.. hahas.. but cannot blame me to suan him de mahs... who ask him at first say i take de photo not nice... den ask him help me take lo... who know he take my photo.. some more is ZOOM IN de!!! stupid lo... that why den i will say he photograph skills sucks mahs... den got one time he wan help me take photo again... i den dun dare let him take wor... later he zoom in again...haha... den also dunno why he ask me to take photo with him... well.. that better than he help me take bahs... take photo tat time still keep saying he got photography license... hahas... den i reply that if he gt license, mountain will collapse sia... den he say ya lorhs pig will fly also... look like me lo... omg... say i pig sia... stupid la!!! but well.. also because of all these thing, that make these trip a better ones... if not i will be bored to death lo... cause mostly is uncel aunty mahs... den no topic to talk... haha... during this trip i am a lonesome la... but overall is nice!!!get to know this stupid guide as a friend also not bad lo...hmmm.... haha change abt 7 hotels during these trip... all hotels are damn nice de... wat a fruitful trip =)... haha... wanted to blog abt all the stuff during my trip de...but give me 3 days 3 nights i also wont be able to blog in all down lo... hahas... so just let it stay in my memories bahs... shall upload some of the photo den... smiles...



at ding tai feng~!!








that's jerry, the singapore guide.. he still pose for me to take lo..lols.. funny ^^






Group photo~~ the photographer anyhow take lo... we not ready he already shoot le.. stupid la...






jerry and me...nice scenery ehs? hahas... that the only photo that i took with him... ^^

woah... i am so tired today.... didnt really sleep much the night before... den around 8am den fell asleep... but wake up at 10+ den need to rush to school for OL briefing... hahas... waste my time sia... the camp date crash with my taiwan trip... so wat to do? gonna give up... my friends all also cannot... >.< sadded.... well den after that went oppsite school to eat prata... the uncle cheat us money sia.... hahas 5 egg prata for 11 bucks... wat the hack... the egg gold de ar? lols... but wat to do... must be more becareful next time nor... >.< den after that went to tm to shop for a while... but my damn stupid shoe hurts my leg sia... just walk a while den cannot make it den take bus home le... abit sick now... having flu, cough and headache... omg... imagine i gonna take a 4 hr flight... i gonna die on plane sia... =( will be going there for abt a week plus... should be around 18 or 19 back... i also not tt sure la.. hahas... watever sia... dad just bought a digital cam.. but dunno wat jap brand... hahas... watever... he like it can le... omg... my head feel like bursting now...

hmmm... finally he call me ytd... well... that did really brighten my day abit... well... maybe is that he's someone who i can communicate with bahs... very comfortable talking to him all these lo... is not that i dun have friend all these... but just diff larh... i also dunno why like there nth much to talk to my poly frenz or sec sch friend or other friends compare to him larhs... ayai ... just diff larhs... i also dunno wat to say... hmmm... it has been around a month or so that never talk to him and msg him le... not that i dun wanna sms him... just that scare disturb him bahs... den also dunno must carry wat attitude to msg him... cant possible like before like tat bahs... haix... i also dunno lorhs... but hearing his voice really make me feel a little bit better...smiles... =D hope that everything will be better bahs... although there a lot of thing in my mind... but i will just kept it to myself bahs... dun wanna destroy this kind of r/s and make it worst...
ya... just be it bahs...

will be going to taiwan soon le... haix... can i bring along my bolster?? xP

finally finish off my main examination yesterday le...can relax a bit le... yeppie!!! but... exam paper were all flunk for me... just cant concentrate on studies all these while...damn it.... alot of thing has been flasing through my mind for all these while... just cant put them now no matter wat... watever le la... just try my best bahs....

recieved des's letter.... hmmm has been aroung 2 weeks like tt never reply his letter le...i keep giving myself excuse that i am busy thus i have no time to reply him... but i know time isnt a prob la... just take me 1/2 hr to write letter... but i just flood myself with all my excuses.... maybe i just dunno how to reply him bahs... he ask me some question... and ask to give him a chance abt the r/s again... i really dunno how to reply him... cause i cant give him any promises anymore...i dun wan to make empty promises... somemore i really dunno wat i want also le... i dun wan promise him this and that... in the end i cant make it... that will be worst... i really dunno how to reply his letter...i really dunno what i want le... i give up... i dun wanna think abt anything anymore...just hope he will understand... and let everything remain as it is...

as i say... i still cant let go of something... it has been a month or so le bahs... but it still lingers in my mind... treat it as i stupid or stubborn or wat de la... cant put it down means cant ... well it takes times bahs... really want to know what
he is thinking right now... but how to ask.. already say that i wont msg him le... haix... i also dunnoo le larhs... argggh... wat the hack am i thinkin.... rawr!!!

will be leaving singapore next wed le... ... well... well... yarh... wat to say... haix...


i dun wanna cry... but why my tears just fall when i think of him...